With breathtaking recklessness a journalist embeds herself and writes a startlingly original memoir and study of masculinity. E xtracting oil offshore is a treacherous business, requiring grit and stamina from its workers, along with a willingness to be cut off from civilisation for weeks, sometimes months, at a time. When men come home from the platforms they are like returning soldiers, struggling to acclimatise and communicate with their wives and girlfriends. Many will turn their phones off and spend the first few days in the pub. Gain the confidence of an offshore worker and he will probably tell you about the friend of a friend who filled his pockets with tools and threw himself off the rig. The journalist Tabitha Lasley hears this suicide story over and over.